He was tired, especially after tonight, after he had found something far worse than he had imagined. The lamp in the living room switching on startled him and he was surprised to see Diya yawning and rubbing the sleep from her eyes. â€śDiya?â€ť
â€śYouâ€™re home.â€ť She gave him a sleepy smile. She stood, stretching. â€śAre you hungry?â€ť
â€śWhy are you sleeping on the couch?â€ť He asked. Had something happened?
â€śHmm? Oh, just waiting up for you. I was worried.â€ť
She stopped in front of him, studying his face. â€śIt was a hard one, wasnâ€™t it? Harder than usual I mean.â€ť He nodded. How could she tell? â€śCould I give you a hug?â€ť
â€śIâ€¦I think I should shower first.â€ť
â€śAlright, Iâ€™ll get you something to eat.â€ť
â€śI donâ€™t think I can eat. I will later, just not right now. Maybe we could watch something, if youâ€™re not too tired.â€ť
Diya hated seeing such a distressed look on his face, like he was reliving everything he had ever been subjected to and she wished she knew what to say. She went into the living room and switched the TV on then clicked on Netflix. She went through the comedy section, wanting to find something to help calm him down.
Romanus wanted to hurry to Diya, to her warmth but he couldnâ€™t do anything at first but stand under the hot spray of water. Sometimes when cases ended up this horrible he was tempted to quit, especially now that he had such a wonderful life with Diya and her now seven year old daughter. He wanted to drown himself in their warmth and forget his childhood ever happened to him. He wanted to forget such horrendous things were still going on in the worlds but he couldnâ€™t. He remembered all too well what it felt like to be one of those helpless children, scared and willing to do anything to make them stop. He had to save them, he had to save as many children as he possibly could.
One of the best things to him about Diya was that she understood his need to do this and she was always here, ready to comfort him when he needed it. Finally his desire to be out there with her got him moving. He washed himself thoroughly, dried and put on something comfortable. Diya had settled on a movie and had made them both hot tea, knowing it helped. He sat down, taking a long swig of it before thanking her. â€śItâ€™s no trouble Romanus. What else can I do for you? Want to lay your head in my lap while we watch the movie and I can rub your back?â€ť
â€śHonestlyâ€¦I think I feel like having you in my lap and just clinging to youâ€ť
â€śOkayâ€ť she crawled into his lap and he wrapped his arms tightly around her, kissing her shoulder â€śthank youâ€ť She had told him countless times he didnâ€™t need to thank her so much so she just relaxed into him and pressed play on their movie.
Between the movie and Diya, he was able let go of some of the tension in his body. He never realized just how much he was holding until he was with her. â€śFeeling any better?â€ť She asked as she ran her fingers through his hair.
â€śYeah, thanks to you.â€ť
She let out a soft laugh, her breath tickling over his skin. â€śIâ€™m not doing anything.â€ť
â€śYouâ€™re doing everything. Just being near you makes me feel better. I donâ€™t know what Iâ€™d do without you and Melody.â€ť He moved his head so he could press his forehead into her neck. â€śYouâ€™ve been such a gift, both of you have.â€ť
â€śWe wouldnâ€™t trade you for the world, Romanus.â€ť She kiss the top of his head. â€śI know you donâ€™t like to, but why donâ€™t you take a short break. Itâ€™s the weekend so Melody doesnâ€™t have to go to school. We could all go somewhere.â€ť
He took in her scent then breathed out â€śI think I really need one. Besides, you two are always so patient with how busy I am. You deserve my full attention for at least the weekendâ€ť
â€śYou do plenty with usâ€ť
â€śwhere would you like to take her?â€ť
â€śI donâ€™t know, I didnâ€™t think that far aheadâ€ť
â€śwe could ask her I suppose. Iâ€™m happy anywhere as long as Iâ€™m with you twoâ€ť
â€śare you ready to head to bed then? She gets up early, even on weekendsâ€ť
â€śYeahâ€ť he stood, still holding Diya. He carried her to their room and didnâ€™t even take the time to get undressed before settling into bed with her. She didnâ€™t mind, she preferred pajamas but she knew he had dealt with something absolutely stomach churning tonight and she was willing to do whatever he needed to heal from it. They both fell asleep fast and woke to an excited little girl â€śMom! Dad! Iâ€™m hungry! Can I help you make pancakes mom?â€ť Sleepily her mother answered â€śsure babyâ€ť
Romanus couldnâ€™t help but actually feel whole and normal in these moments with Diya and Melody. He felt love and affection warm him as he followed them and still found it hard to believe how lucky he was. â€śIâ€™ll make coffee.â€ť He said as they started pulling things out of the pantry and fridge. â€śOrange juice for the princess?â€ť He asked and Melody giggled.
â€śSo what do you think baby? Chocolate chips or blueberries?â€ť
â€śCan we do both?â€ť
Once Romanus had the coffee started and had a glass of juice on the table for Melody, he stepped up behind Diya and wrapped his arms around her. â€śI love you.â€ť He said and pressed a kiss to her temple.
â€śI love you too.â€ť She turned just enough to kiss his cheek then went back to helping make batter. â€śSo, Melody, daddy and I want to take you out somewhere this weekend, do you have anywhere youâ€™d like to go or something youâ€™d really like to do?â€ť
â€śI donâ€™t knowâ€ť
â€śThink about it over breakfast.â€ť Romanus said and Melody nodded. Their seven year old happily made breakfast with her mother as she thought about something for them all to do. Meanwhile Romanus just enjoyed watching them, the only beings who had ever brought true happiness into his life. The two made far too many pancakes but Melody liked to have them as snacks anyway. Theyâ€™d just put the leftover ones in a ziplock in the fridge. They were just eating and talking when Melody said â€ścould we go to a beach?â€ť
â€śI know the perfect oneâ€ť Melody squeaked with excitement â€śwhen can we go?â€ť
â€śLets eat and then we can make a bag of things we will needâ€ť Melody began to eat just a little quicker causing her mother to laugh before she said â€śwell we might have to stop by a store. I donâ€™t know if she has a swim suit that fits herâ€ť
â€śThat can just be a part of the fun. We can let her pick oneâ€ť Romanus responded then Diya spoke again, an idea dawning on her â€śwe can have a picnic there too for lunch. You can help me decide what at the store Melodyâ€ť
Romanus helped Diya clean up and then gather things for the beach. Diya picked out an outfit for Melody and sent her to her room to get changed. They then went to get ready. He didnâ€™t know why he still found himself getting nervous when they changed together. He knew she wouldnâ€™t hurt him or force him into anything, but his heart still stuttered in his chest and he found himself looking away when she pulled her shirt off. â€śRomanus?â€ť
â€śDo you need me to change in the bathroom?â€ť
â€śNo, sorry, I want to look, but I feelâ€¦guilty I guess.â€ť And scared.
â€śRomanus, Iâ€™m gonna come closer, okay?â€ť
She moved over, one arm across her chest and gently lifted his head. â€śYou donâ€™t have to rush yourself, Iâ€™m not going anywhere, so please donâ€™t worry.â€ť
â€śOkay, I love you and youâ€™re very beautiful Diya, truly.â€ť She gave him a quick kiss then turned away from him and grabbed clean clothes out of her chest of drawers. He changed quickly and they left the room together, both of them smiling when they saw Melody waiting excitedly on the couch.
â€ścan we go now?â€ť
â€śYes baby, weâ€™re all readyâ€ť
When they arrived at the store Melody easily picked out a swim suit so picking out stuff for lunch was the only thing that took a lot of time. They ended up settling on different fruits they could keep in the small cooler they bought. â€śseems like weâ€™re readyâ€ť Melody made that excited little noise again, bouncing even as they checked out. Melody put the swim suit on under her clothes in the store bathroom since there may not be a place to change at the beach Romanus was taking them to. They didnâ€™t ask if it was in their world or another, both loving surprises.
There was one place Romanus had found after he had escaped from his father and the depraved people who had used him. It had been one of the most peaceful moments of his life until he met Diya and Melody. It was actually connected to the vortex near the actual beach and was the reason why reality sometimes seemed distorted there to the regular human. Melody gave a little squeal of delight when she saw the water, but looked at them in confusion when Romanus kept driving. â€śWeâ€™re not going here?â€ť She asked.
â€śWeâ€™re going somewhere better.â€ť Romanus said. â€śSomewhere kind of special to me.â€ť
Diya reached over and grabbed his hand when she saw the look on his face. She could always tell when he was thinking of his childhood. Even if there had been any sort of good memory after what had happened, it always came back to his childhood. â€śWhatâ€™s it like?â€ť She asked.
â€śItâ€™s peaceful and beautiful.â€ť He turned onto a side road and pulled over after a few more minutes. They all got out, grabbing things and he lead them over to the center of the vortex.
He picked them both up, not wanting to risk anything happening to them as they went through. He carried them out onto the sand then carefully put them down. The two of them were amazed at the beach they were seeing. It was a thousand times prettier here than back in their world. Diya kissed him on the cheek â€śthank youâ€ť he gave her a small smile â€śIâ€™m happy to have a family to bring hereâ€¦as a childâ€¦I didnâ€™t think Iâ€™d ever have happinessâ€ť Melody tugged on him â€ścan I run into the water? Is it safe?â€ť
â€śyes, just dont go as depe as your waste until your mother and I set up the blanket and picnic stuffâ€ť
â€śYes sirâ€ť she said excitedly then ran to the water. Diya started setting things up where they stood, glancing over at her daughter every now and then to make sure she was listening to Romanus. Once their picnic was set Diya said â€ślets go play with herâ€ť He pulled Diya into his arms â€śjust give me a few moments to hold you firstâ€ť She glanced over at her daughter again then relaxed into the hug, wondering what he must be thinking about.
â€śDiya?â€ť Romanus finally said.
â€śIâ€™m sorry Iâ€™m still so uncomfortable and nervous doing certain things. I donâ€™t deserve your patience.â€ť
â€śHush, you have every right to be and you know you didnâ€™t hurt my feelings right?â€ť
â€śI know, itâ€™s justâ€¦I mean what if you want another child or something.â€ť
Diya pulled back enough to see his face. â€śWeâ€™ll cross that bridge when we get to it, but right now you need to just take your time. It just makes me happy hearing you say you might even want to try.â€ť She gave him a kiss. â€śYouâ€™re making really good progress, you really are, so donâ€™t rush. Iâ€™m perfectly happy.â€ť
â€śI just want to give you everything, but I donâ€™t know if Iâ€™ll be able to.â€ť
â€śYouâ€™ve given me more than you know, you saved Melody and youâ€™ve been so amazing to us. I love you, so donâ€™t worry.â€ť
Diya looked back at Melody. â€śShe looks so happy and thatâ€™s all thanks to you, baby.â€ť
She could see how much emotion that stirred up in him â€ślets go play with herâ€ť She gave Romanus another kiss and the two got up to play with Melody â€śYes!â€ť she said excitedly, instantly starting to go deeper. Diya laughed, seeing how eager her daughter had been. She went under and Diya instantly noticed how worried Romanus looked. When she popped back up Melody splashed him, he looked surprised a moment then she encouraged with a giggle â€ścome on dadâ€ť He splashed back, taking awhile to really give her a good one. It was always sweet and sad to see him interact with her.
It showed all the time he hadnâ€™t had any sort of a normal childhood. While playing at one point Romanus pulled Diya under, holding her against him then coming uip quickly â€śthrow her throw her!â€ť Melody said excitedly. Romanus looked at Diya who giggled â€śitâ€™s okayâ€ť He threw her and Melody laughed. Diya came up laughing as well and Romanus smiled. He wished he could play with them more normally but he was still learning how to play.
They splashed and played until Melody asked for a snack. Romanus made sure she was out safely before following Diya over to their stuff. They sat down together and enjoyed the warm weather as they ate. â€śWe should explore a little.â€ť Diya said. â€śIf thatâ€™s okay with you.â€ť She added.
â€śAlright, but please stay close to me. Itâ€™s not really dangerous here, but just in case.â€ť Romanus knew he probably sounded paranoid. â€śI mean feel free to explore, just donâ€™t got to far.â€ť
â€śRomanus,â€ť Diya took his hand, â€śitâ€™s okay.â€ť
â€śSorry, I know at some point Iâ€™m going to have to learn to let loose, especially as our little Melody gets older.â€ť He didnâ€™t want his little girl to hate him.
She leaned over and kissed his cheek. â€śYouâ€™re an amazing father, she wonâ€™t hold it against you.â€ť
â€śYou two never hold anything against meâ€¦â€ť
â€śI cant think of anything we should. Weâ€™re happy with you. I mean itâ€ť The couple cleaned up their picnic then walked hand in hand as they followed little Melody. He would guide since he knew the area but he wanted them to see everything they wanted to see. Melody gasped as she drew near the water again, going in just to her ankles and collecting the shells that had grabbed her attention â€śthese are so pretty. Can I take them home? Pleaseâ€ť Romanus answered â€śyes, there are many gorgeous shells in that waterâ€ť
Melody ran over to her mother â€świll you carry them please?â€ť
Romanus found himself able to relax near completely as they walked and watched Melody. It wasnâ€™t until he saw his little girl freeze that the tension came back. â€śMelody, whatâ€™s wrong?â€ť He asked as he moved up to stand behind her.
She pointed. â€śThereâ€™s a dog over there.â€ť She said and he followed her gaze.
It wasnâ€™t a dog, but a wolf, and he was surprised she had been able to see it with how well its fur allowed it to blend into the tall grass. He could tell it was young and skinnier than normal. He moved in front of her and it seemed to startle the young wolf who hadnâ€™t noticed him. â€śDiya, take Melody please.â€ť
Diya gently pulled her daughter closer, watching the wolf. â€śWhat does it want?â€ť
â€śHe and I think heâ€™s starving.â€ť Had the wolf been watching Melody because she was the weaker target?
â€śWhat should we do?â€ť Diya asked. â€śShould we feed him?â€ť
Romanus wasnâ€™t so sure, but he couldnâ€™t tell Diya no, not when he knew the creature before them was still a child, twelve at most. â€śIâ€™ll do it, you two stay back.â€ť They had plenty of snacks so he went through the bag, pulling a couple of granola bars out and and taking their wrappers off. The wolfâ€™s eyes watched the food.
It started to shift and Melody held a little tighter to her mother. They were aware of other beings but Melody had never seen an actual wolf shifter before. The young boy then cautiously came over and took the food. Melody was embarrassed looking at the naked boy so buried her face into her mother. â€śwhy are you so thin and why are you alone?â€ť Romanus asked and the boy looked up into Romanusâ€™s eyes, swallowing down his food before saying softly â€śIâ€™ve been alone as long as I can rememberâ€¦I justâ€¦I just felt like coming to the beach today and thenâ€ť he looked over at Melody again. He fell silent so Romanus gently grabbed his face, turning it back to him â€śPlease stop staring at my daughterâ€ť
â€śHer mother is my mate now so yes she is mineâ€ť The boy looked uncomfortable and Diya said â€śRomanus, we canâ€™t just leave this boy alone.â€ť
â€śwhat do you suggest we do with him?â€ť
â€śwellâ€¦our house is plenty bigâ€ť
Romanus didnâ€™t know how he felt about allowing a stranger into their home, but if he turned the boy away, then it would be a betrayal of everything he had worked for. Not only that, but he knew Diya would be disappointed. He turned his gaze back to the boy who had once again been looking at Melody. â€śSorry.â€ť The boy said.
â€śWhatâ€™s your name?â€ť
â€śTormod, do you remember how you came to be alone?â€ť
He shook his head. â€śI donâ€™t, just that I was running and then it was just me.â€ť
Romanus nodded. â€śMy mate believes that you should come home with us, would you like that?â€ť
Tormod glanced at Melody. â€śYes.â€ť
Romanus leaned closer to the boy, hearing his heart skip in his chest. â€śI am only going to ask you this once child, was it my daughter who brought you here?â€ť
â€śIâ€¦I could smell her and Iâ€¦I donâ€™t want to hurt her or anything, I just found her scent and followed it from the beach. The wolfâ€¦the wolf wanted me to.â€ť
Romanus nodded as he straightened up and released Tormod. â€śYou do know that my mate and daughter are important to me and if anything were to happen to themâ€¦â€ť
â€śI wont hurt themâ€¦I promiseâ€ť the boy seemed harmless and had a healthy fear of him so Romanus decided they could take him home. Besides, he knew about wolves.It sounded as if his daughter might very well be this boys mate. If that ended up being so he knew weather she returned the feelings or not heâ€™d be a protector for her and he still worried about Melody, about another pervert setting his sights on her. Once he got this boy healthy it would be nice to know a wolf was protecting his family and would do so even if it meant his life since he knew how serious wolves were once they found their mate.
â€ślets go ahead and get home home. Iâ€™ll bring you guys back here once heâ€™s healthyâ€ť Tormond looked at Melody again â€śIâ€™ll shift. Iâ€™m making her uncomfortable like thisâ€ť
â€śalright, first thing weâ€™ll do is get you some clothes for this formâ€ť Tormond nodded and shifted back into a wolf, following the family once they began heading back the way they came. Unsurprisingly he ended up by Melodys side but she seemed happy now. Once home Roamus mulled over how he wanted to do this trip. He couldnâ€™t take this boy to the store naked and he couldnâ€™t take a wolf into a store. He also wasnâ€™t so sure he wanted to leave him alone with his family right away despite the fact Romanus was guessing Melody would come to mean to the world to this wolf.
â€śare you trying to think about what to do when it comes to shopping?â€ť
â€śI can measure him and look up online what sizes heâ€™ll need. Then you can just go. Weâ€™ll be fine alone with him. Heâ€™s a kid, a starved child who was just given a home. I donâ€™t feel like heâ€™s going to hurt anybodyâ€ť
â€ścould you just order him clothes online?â€ť
â€śsame day shipping is expensive but yeah. I really want him to be able to shifts back into a boy when he wantsâ€ť He was curled up beside Melody who was petting him. Diya whispered â€śso scary, he totally cant be trusted if you go to the storeâ€ť
Romanus looked at Tormod and then back at Diya. She was teasing him. He let out a little sigh and she hugged him. â€śDiya.â€ť
â€śAt least get him a pair of sweats and a shirt. He needs something and it wonâ€™t take you long.â€ť
â€śAlright, alright, Iâ€™ll go.â€ť He leaned back and kissed her. â€śJust, if anything happens, call me.â€ť
â€śI will, now go, weâ€™ll be fine.â€ť
Diya got Melody to cover her eyes so Tormod could shift back long enough to be measured. The boy apologized and Diya did he rbest to reassure him it was alright. He shifted back quickly and went back to Melody, which caused Diya to let out a little laugh. She looked up his sizes and then gave them to Romanus so he could get something for him. Romanus left, knowing he shouldnâ€™t be worried, but unable to keep his mind from wandering. Logically, he knew young Tormod was practically harmless. The boy was starved, but after everything he couldnâ€™t help himself. Once he was at the store, he quickly found the right clothing and grabbed them.
He felt relieved when he finally got home and Diya gave him a hug once he was inside. â€śSorry.â€ť He said softly.
â€śHush, you know itâ€™s okay.â€ť She took the bag from him and went to Tormod. â€śHere sweetie, why donâ€™t you go put these on.â€ť
He picked up the bag with his mouth and walked off to a room. He wasnâ€™t going to shift infront of Melody any more unless he had to. When he came back he was a boy and seemed to fit perfectly in what Romanus had bought him â€śthank youâ€ť
“whatever you need will be taken care of for now on. Youâ€™re a part of this family now. Tormond walked back over to Melody who asked â€śdo you like to color?â€ť he seemed confused a few moments then said â€ścreate art?â€ť Diya smiled â€śsort of, lets go get her coloring booksâ€ť Diya quickly pulled the box she kept it all in and handed it to Tormod â€śI have to finish cooking dinner but sheâ€™ll show you what she meansâ€ť He walked back to Melody and set the box down. She grabbed a coloring book then said â€śyou pick oneâ€ť he just grabbed the top one and she pulled out the crayons. Romanus watched them a few minuets before joining his wife in the kitchen.
â€śis he taking to coloring?â€ť she asked in an amused tone and he said â€śheâ€™ll probably take to anything she wants to do with himâ€ť
â€śhe said his wolf wanted him to come to her. Most likely sheâ€™s his mate. You know about wolves right?â€ť
â€śI donâ€™t know what you meanâ€ť
â€śThey are one of the very few beings that know when theyâ€™ve found their soulmate. The wolf inside them guides them to whomever they are meant for. I mean I might think the wolf just knew Iâ€™d take him in because they have instincts for more than just that but the way he keeps looking at her, I just feel like itâ€™s a mate thingâ€ť
â€śHe knows sheâ€™s seven right?â€ť a small bit of her momma bear was peeking out. â€śI wouldnâ€™t have brought him home for a second if I thought he might hurt her. Heâ€™ll protect her with his life, honestly if he does anything that hurts her itâ€™ll crush him. Their mates are everything to them. Heâ€™ll protect her, always. Iâ€™m going to stay home awhile to be absolutely sure about him but if Iâ€™m right Iâ€™ll feel a lot better with him here to protect you twoâ€ť
â€śis it going to be a problem though when sheâ€™s older? I mean, will he become aggressive about it?â€ť
â€śNo, like I said, the only thing at risk with those two if sheâ€™s his mate is her breaking his heart. He wouldnâ€™t hurt her or anybody she lovesâ€ť
â€śIâ€™m really happy youâ€™re taking a break with usâ€ť he could tell any concerns were eased. He could understand how that chat at first could be alarming since he was in his early teens and their daughter hadnâ€™t even made it to double digits yet.
He set the table for her while she cooked, then looked in on Melody and Tormod. They were still coloring, Tormod going much slower than Melody and focusing much harder. He went back to Diya and wrapped his arms around her and pressed a kiss to her cheek. â€śWhat should we do for the rest of the weekend?â€ť
â€śGet Tormod completely settled in, help him get used to living a normal life.â€ť
â€śNormal, I wish I could truly give you all that.â€ť
â€śYou do just fine.â€ť
â€śIâ€™m sure Tormod can smell death on me, heâ€™ll want to know why at some point.â€ť
â€śTell him when youâ€™re ready, Iâ€™m sure heâ€™ll understand.â€ť She let out a little laugh as she switched off the stove. â€śLooks like we donâ€™t have to worry about having a baby.â€ť
â€śDiya.â€ť She turned in his arms, smiling up at him. â€śI do want to give you children, Iâ€¦I love you.â€ť
â€śItâ€™s okay, really and I love you too.â€ť
He tucked some hair behind her ear â€śIâ€¦we should tryâ€¦to at least have sexâ€ť
â€śbut are you ready for that because I dont care. Iâ€™m happy to never have sex if you find you canâ€™tâ€ť
â€ślets try tonight okayâ€ť
â€śPlease donâ€™t do this just for meâ€ť
â€śI want to, I want to experience what enjoyableâ€¦consensual sex is likeâ€ť
â€śalright but weâ€™re taking it slow and you need to tell me right away if youâ€™re getting scared or uncomfortableâ€ť He held her tightly to him a few moments, both nervous and eager for the evening. They served the food then called Melody and Tormod in. They both came quickly, Melody holding a picture for each of her parents â€śthank you honeyâ€ť Melody sat down in her normal spot, cheerful as ever and Tormod joined her. His eyes widened a bit when he saw all the food on the table and Diya felt bad for him all over again â€śtry to take it slow Tormodâ€ť He nodded but seemed to struggle with actually following through with it as he ate.
Tormod let out a little whine after dinner and Diya realized his stomach hurt. â€śIâ€™m sorry.â€ť He said.
â€śItâ€™s okay honey, but next time try to eat slow, okay? Youâ€™ll never have to go without and no one is going to take your food from you.â€ť
She patted his back. â€śLetâ€™s get you to your room.â€ť He looked back at Melody, who was taking her plate to the sink, not wanting to leave her. â€śTormod, how about we give you the room next to Melodyâ€™s.â€ť
â€śReally?â€ť She could see him light up at the thought.
â€śOf course, that way, you know where she is.â€ť
Romanus sent Melody off to follow them and started cleaning up. As he rinsed dishes and stuck them in the dishwasher, he began to over think things. What if he hurt Diya? What if he got scared? She said it was okay, but was it? He hated he was so scared, it was ridiculous when it was Diya. He heard a cracking sound and looked down to see he had squeezed one of their glasses too hard. He took a deep breath, sighed, then threw it away.
She was still reading to Melody when he was done in the kitchen but he had heard her read this one before and knew it was nearly over so he leaned against the wall and listened. When Diya came out she smiled up at him, easing some of his nerves. She took his hand and guided him into their bedroom. Diya shut then locked the door before saying softly â€śtheres no expectation of you Romanus. Weâ€™ll do what you can handle tonight, thats it. You can even still back out if you need toâ€ť
â€śI want to tryâ€ť
â€śHow do you want to start? You can undress me or I can undress myselfâ€ť Roamnus nervously answered â€śIâ€™m too nervous to be able to undress youâ€¦could you do it slowlyâ€ť
â€śmhmâ€ť She took off her shirt first, happy when he didnâ€™t turn away from her as he often did. She then took off her pants, now standing in just her bra and underwear â€śeverything Roamnus or do you maybe want to touch me like this firstâ€ť Saying Roamnus was traumatized from being a constant sex toy in his childhood was an understatement so Diya felt she needed to be incredibly careful about this, especially since this was their first attempt at doing anything sexual.
It took him awhile but he managed to finally actually touch her bare skin. He tuned his senses into her, feeling a bit of emotion tug at his heart that she obviously like him touching her. He knew she wanted him, logically anyway. All he had known this far was rapists and it made all this hard emotionally. He was mostly touching her arms, back and stomach, seeming careful to avoid her breasts so she tried to help him â€śRoamnus, you can touch me anywhereâ€ť He blushed, seeming a little shaky as he slowly moved his hands to her breasts. She smiled at him, her expression filled with so much love and patience he had to take a moment to hold her against him which she still viewed as progress. He was actually holding her while she was nearly naked. She wondered for a moment if he realized that.
â€śAre you okay?â€ť She asked softly as she rubbed his back.
â€śYeah, sorry, I justâ€¦â€ť
â€śItâ€™s alright.â€ť He pulled back and she gently pulled him down to kiss him, her fingers running through his hair and over his neck to help calm him. â€śWould you like me to take my bra and underwear off?â€ť
â€śIâ€¦â€ť he took a deep breath to steady himself, â€śyes.â€ť
She moved back enough to remove them, going slow, watching him as he watched her. He was scared and worried, but he wasnâ€™t turning away. He reached out to her and she stepped into him, letting out a breathy moan when his hands moved over her. â€śRomanus.â€ť She slid her arms around his neck and he pressed his lips into hers, parting them so he could deepen the kiss.
His hands slid over her warm skin, his fingers moving up her spine, causing her to shiver. He was surprised to feel desire tingling over him, slowly filling him. He wanted to be brave and made himself back her onto the bed. He pulled back and she smiled up at him, so loving and trusting, so patient as she waited for him. â€śYouâ€™re so beautiful.â€ť He whispered, his voice shaking a little.
â€śand youâ€™re so handsome Romanus. I love youâ€ť His heart trembled again and he kissed her. Diya tried not to look as surprised as she was when he began taking off his own clothes, worried surprise might be mistranslated by him right now and he was doing far better than she had expected this evening. They were skin to skin and while they were now not doing anything this progress meant the world to her. Not because she wanted sex, she did but what mattered to her was what this meant for him as far as healing went. On top of that she knew how much trust it took for him to be naked and exposed like this. He didnâ€™t end up being able to do more that evening but he took her under the covers and held her skin to skin all night.
~ The End ~